sleep
For years I've had struggles with sleep. Blame it mostly on shift work. Also had issues of not sleeping with dh was away.

Sleep eludes me now. 3-5 hours total a night. I try to go to bed thinking positive thoughts, looking at my joy journal, thinking happy things. I usually end up crying myself to sleep. TV on. I wake up a few times, usually from bad dreams. And then it's like clockwork, I usually wake up at 5am. So nauseated.

The mind is a powerful thing. It's winning the battle right now; my body is suffering. A viscious cycle. Mind is going a million miles a minute, body can't relax and shut down to get proper sleep, tired all day, mind goes even faster. Thinking, thinking, thinking. I wonder how long my body will be able to keep up before it gives up and collapses.